A True Confession About My Fitness Journey
Last week it was True Confession week, and this week I have another confession. As many of you know, I have been on a journey to better health. Over the past year, I have had some successes, and I have had some setbacks. However, I have recently fallen off the wagon. This isn’t my proudest moment, but I believe accountability is a good thing. In September of last year, I took a nasty fall by tripping over a pothole (Yes, I’m that clumsy) and ended up in physical therapy for four months. It was painful because of the nerve and muscle damage in my lower leg. Whenever I had to stand for any length of time, my leg would immediately begin to burn and swell. Evenings were spent rolling the fluid out of my leg, icing, and keeping it elevated. The only thing that gave me relief was water aerobics. It was great when I was in the water, but my leg would throb unmercifully when I got out. I would drive home from class, take Aleve, and be done for the night, but at least I was staying active. I was released from Physical Therapy at the end of November, just in time for the cold weather and Christmas.
Christmas is a hard season for anyone who struggles with their weight. All those holiday goodies are a carb lover’s dream. Honestly, I did my best this season to pass up cookies, cakes, chips and the plethora of other foods which beckoned me. I was excited because I maintained my weight loss through Christmas, until after the start of the new year.
You would think New Year’s would have been easier. January 1st seems to be the reset day for the whole world, with every possible weight loss company promoting their plan for success. It’s also my mom’s birthday, along with all the snacking and eating out we did when I went home to visit. Also, I had the flu, and a family member passed away. Could I have made better food choices during this time? Yes, I could have and should have. The excuses I’ve made are just that, excuses. Let’s say some days were better than others.
In January, I stepped on the scales to a 3 lb. weight gain. I know that doesn’t seem like a big deal, but it is a big deal to me. I had been consistently losing weight every month, and now I had my first gain in over ten months. February came, and once again I stepped on the scale to another 2lb. gain. This makes 5 lbs. overall. This has to stop! I do not want to go back to where I was, and I don’t want to disappoint myself or those who believe in me. I will overcome because Jesus says I am an overcomer.
I don’t know what you struggle with, but whatever it is, don’t let it overcome you. You deserve more than your unfulfilled dreams. We both do. I am tired of this thorn in my flesh, and it may be something I have to deal with the rest of my life, but I will never give up trying to win this war. The enemy can mess with me, but he doesn't own me. Click To TweetThe enemy can mess with me, but he doesn’t own me. For every time he tells me I can’t do it or I am a failure, God tells me, “I love you from now through eternity.” A weight loss or gain doesn’t make God love me any more or less. God loves me just the way I am. He knows I am a work in progress and there will be many times He will have to take me back to the potter’s wheel to smooth out my rough edges and fix the cracks to keep me from falling apart.
This doesn’t mean I get to sit on the sideline and eat hot dogs. God wants us to be active participants in our faith. There are times when God calls us to step up to the front line of battle so we can see who the real enemy is. Sometimes I only have to look in the mirror to see that the enemy is me. I’m sabotaging myself by living in the past and not the present. A slip up doesn’t make me unworthy of God’s love. Jesus made me worthy of God’s love just the way I am. It isn’t my weight that is getting in between God and me, it is my arrogant attitude of self, thinking I have to be or do something for God to love me more. I know this sounds so elementary, but maybe you need to be reminded too.
Does it mean we give up and give in to our temptations? Not! It means we need to rework the plan that isn’t working for us, knowing God is never ready to throw in the towel.
Here are some new things I have implemented to step up my game and commit to a healthier life:
Lose It!: I have installed this app on my phone, so I can record everything I am putting in my mouth. There are a lot of benefits to tracking your food. The app tells you if you are eating too many carbs, fats or protein. You can set goals for yourself, and you can invite friends to join you. They won’t see how much you weigh, but they can encourage and help you with accountability.
Water, Organic Apple Cider Vinegar & Organic Honey: I could do a whole post on the benefits of this drink, but for now I will share my personal view. I have been drinking this drink for a month, and I do feel better. They say it is good for inflammation that is in your body and before drinking this my joints ached. Now, after thirty days, my joints no longer ache, and I’m moving around much better. It is very thirst quenching too. I’d say if you are going to do this start out slow it does take a little bit of effort to get used to the tartness. If you can’t get past drinking it, you can always make a salad dressing and put it on your salad. This is also great for helping lowering blood sugar levels. This type of vinegar contains malic acid which is good for heart health for cleaning out your arteries, lymph nodes and organs. It has also been proven to lower triglycerides, help you lose waist circumference, and lose weight after using it for three months. I figure there is nothing in this drink which will hurt you, so I’m willing to invest three months for better health. I feel better after the first month, so I’ll keep drinking because the overall health benefits are great!
More Sleep: What??? Yes, more sleep. I was staying up all hours of the night, and my sleep pattern was whacked. I’m now on a regimen of getting at least eight hours of sleep. Why? If I wake up tired, it is hard to be motivated to do anything else. If I want to burn more calories, I need to be more active. You aren’t active when you are tired. Lack of sleep plays havoc with you physically, emotionally and spiritually. I have found the best gift I can give to myself is a good night’s sleep.
Counting Carbs: The one big thing I quit doing, which I know contributed to my downfall, was counting my carbs. Carbs are my nemesis! My nutritionist has advised me to try to eat less than 100g of carbs a day. This is my goal and most days I can do it. I also notice when I do count them and stick to my limit, how much better I feel. There are many ways to modify recipes with vegetables, and the supermarket has become a friendlier place to those eating a Paleo diet. The internet is a great place to find delicious tried and true recipes too!
Well, now that my dirty little secret is out it is time to move forward and quit looking back. Again, I don’t know what you struggle with, but if your plan isn’t working try something new rather than risk being stuck in your rut. I’ll keep you posted on my journey to fitness.
What about you? Are you struggling with weight or something totally different? Do you need to rework your plan? You are in a no judgement zone, my friend. If you would prefer to message me privately, email me at sheila@JesusGlitter.com. I would love to encourage you! If you have had something work for you in your weight loss journey, let me know! I’m open to trying anything once.
Remember, there is nothing you can do to make God love you any more than He already does!